school is tiring. anxiety is tiring. so many things have been exhausting me. good sleep, exercise and company have been helping me to curb my anxiety. i don't know... why my brain is like this? why is it so messed up? but i'm not gonna complain too much, because we all have different deficiencies and flaws. one mine is overthinking, and i'll learn to deal with that. we tend to blow things out of proportion when we are dealing with crappy crap. many problems look terrible until you appreciate what you still have. you still have so, so much. i will still be blessed, regardless of all the bad things that will come my way! (i do expect many ups and downs in the next decade. that's pretty.. obvious, uh, cos anyone would expect that.) 

sometimes i forget why i work so hard! I must remember this-- one day, i'll finally put my knowledge to good use.