Aspirations
Sunday, 1 February 2015 | 0 letters
Hullo. My latest... updates have been quite morose huh.
I think we're always going to be grappling between the light and darkness.
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I never expected that I'd feel so wretched like this.
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I'm at a loss. Well, if it can persist through the test of time, it is real. If not, it would have to be released.
And also, I wish that I would be able to save myself from the clutches of my mind. I can't. When your worst enemy is yourself, there's nowhere to run to.
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Recently, reality reared its ugly head. I don't hate growing up. Because it allows me to feel so much more deeply than before, which is both a blessing and a curse. Still, facing realistic side of reality is slightly depressing. I don't really want to bear the burdens that come with lucidity.
I don't have a passion for anything, hahaha. You see, I don't have enough love for any job. Maybe a miracle will happen soon. The chances of that happening is slim so.. I wouldn't pin much hope on it. I guess all I can do is to find out more about the jobs that I am remotely interested in and personally experience a fraction of those jobs.
On a lighterrrrrrrr note, I have some post-As plans! They include reading nice fictional and non-fictional books, creating cool vids (yes, self-proclaimed), interning at some companies, hanging out with my family and friends, volunteering here and there, and learning how to be independent.
I realised some sad truths recently. I'm still not ready to talk about them though.
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Hello. I'm back for a while. I feel really sleepy right now.
